I'm a mudbaby, a term borrowed from a former ceramics teacher for a person who loves clay and ceramics.
I enjoy sculpture, capitalizing the letter 'R' (especially in the middle of words), nature, hiking, writing,
the ocean, cozy sweaters, tea, & other beautiful things.
Sleeping is my favorite thing.
Here is what I know:
You drink your coffee black and we are afraid of each other.
Once you kissed my neck in front of your friends
and it made me very shy.
Once you kissed my stomach and I started crying.
I see the tender way you touch things and want to kiss your nose
but I keep my mouth to myself.
Your collarbones are craters big enough to fit my fist into.
You are the most beautiful thing I’ve seen in months.
I was not good to the last person I loved so I punished my heart
(I let it break and bleed out then roughly sewed it back together)
It is hard to write poems when I only know how to fuck you.
I am always trying. I am thinking of Somedays. I am saying goodbye.
You asked why I never write anything honest so I am writing you this.